2007

lifes hard. if we didnt suffer, wed never learn anything.

i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it.
i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it.
i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it.
i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it.
i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it.

i hated it! i hated it! i hated it! i hated it!
i hated it! i hated it! i hated it! i hated it!
i hated it! i hated it! i hated it! i hated it!
i hated it! i hated it! i hated it! i hated it!
i hated it! i hated it! i hated it! i hated it!

nothing in particular happened that hurt me or anything. im not overlooking the great things about the year, but really. good things happen to people during the year ALL the time.
ive gotta say 2007 was the least favorite year ive lived through so far. the thing i hate about it most is that theres nothing you or i can do to fix it… just gotta do better, try harder next chance i get. i’m starting to get the feeling that just talking about a problem with someone else doesnt help me. actions speak way louder than words and the difference between me and you is that i make mistakes and you do things deliberately. its hurts because im not used to feeling like this. but i deal at those same moments.

there are so many things i want to say but you always catch me off guard and i never know where to start and how to say it the right way. the most important thing is not only do i care, but i make you my number one, and i give you my 100%, thats what i want back. after i feel that fulfilled, only then will i be okay with whatever youre doing. im not trying to hold you back, and imwilling to tough it out until you give me up.